Somehow I"m back peddling... I'm too stressed and too busy to care for the most part. Gained weight.... getting yelled at by people who have no clue... yeah.. fun. I'm going to bed, I don't care if I ate too much today. ><

Weight 303.1
Biked 3 miles

SOPA and Stuff

Gotta admit... today made me smile. Even I had no clue how strongly the internet could unite. I mean... so many anonymous people, corporations, companies just... everyone that united. So COOL! I really can't even describe the warm fuzzies it gives me. ^.^ eeeeeee

Went to CORE yesterday for the BL work out. Yeah... not so much. I didn't feel good afterwards. I mean, I didn't feel motivated, like I"d accomplished anything or anything like that. I literally sat in the car and cried. That can't be good for me.

Also... two glasses of wine... bad idea. I haven't been that physically depressed in a LONG time... it was ugly, real ugly, which didn't help the Core thing yesterday either. I might try a single glass later. My reasoning is this: It fulfills my cravings for pop, without the corn syrup. And it doesn't hurt that it helps me sleep. So... yeah... It's worth another shot. Just one glass though.

It is cold tonight! Finally! I am seriously excited about this. Yeah I'm a Minnesota girl. ^^ Oh and by cold, I mean below zero Fahrenheit! The high tomorrow is like 1. I am soooo happy about that. This is the first honest winter weather we've had, and we are way over due. :( So I will relish this. All curled up and comfy in my blankets with my warm puppy ^^

official BL weight for the week 297.3 o.o
biked 2.75 miles

Rose....

Wine tonight... two glasses...

Not a good night. I was ok, but the meeting tonight just did me in. I asked Dad how he turns it off... he was blunt: Alcohol. I thank him for being blunt, I just wish I had been able to get more useful advice. To hell with it. Two glasses of some rose wine or something like that and hopefully I'll be able to cry myself to sleep. Right now I can't even cry...

At least the wine tastes good.

Pop: 1 can :(
Stess level: Very High
Mood... :c
Biked 2.5 miles

The Documentary Phase

It seems like once a year I take a break from everything else and catch up on all the major documentaries that have come out in the last year. And it's that time again. The most intriguing thing to me isn't what I learn, it's that I get so much accomplished while watching these things, even if I've watched them before... Yeah, I don't get that. Ah well... I skipped most of "Nature" last year so I have a few extra of those. ^^

I've sorted through a ton of beads these last two days, and even made some earrings tonight. Not quite what I had intended, but I did give the dog a bath and myself a shower, did some biking and went shopping. I'll call that a successful day.

I also had a pleasant surprise. On a whim I weighed myself before my shower (the same time of day I weigh in on Thursdays) and I was at 299.4! I double checked, since on Thursday the scale had said 306. But it came up the same twice! So either I was wrong on Thursday or I somehow lost almost 7 pounds in 3 days! Which, given that I"m not really trying that hard, mostly just trying to slightly alter my diet and bike at least some distance everyday... That shouldn't do that, should it?

Ah well. I am where I am and I'm cool with that.

Pop: One -.- (Went out to eat at Appleblech and it tasted just wrong)
Biked: 2.5 miles

Now to work on that fb addiction >.>

Can't stop...

I can't stop my brain today >< It just keeps moving.

I got a lot accomplished, but I should have been in bed an hour or two ago.

Oh and things are in short bursts of coherency... can you tell? :p

Still a lot to do, nowhere near done with everything.

Mood @.@ but good
no pop today!
Biked 2.25 miles or something like that
stress level: high, but manageable.

I HATE coyotes!

Seriously, their howls and calls make my skin crawl.And it doesn't help when our big bad outside dog cowers by me when they start howling either :c

They were howling when I came back to my house tonight. So I'm outside, cold, wet, with a tiny white dog and a smaller lab mix jumping around me looking at me like "I'm not going near those guys, no way!" Yeah, I think the chills are allowed, and it wasn't just the cold and the wet hair. I know they were a ways away, but they still give me the heebeejeebees.

On the plus side I had more of my Thai Chicken Noodle Soup. Oh my is it good! I haven't cooked with coconut milk before this, but I'm not going to hesitate after this. There's not even much in the soup, but it is soooo good. The broth is just so comforting. And the rice noodles are just enough to give it sustenance. And the chicken just makes it delicious! I will definitely be making this again. The down side is I only have one bowl left, the plus side... Dad doesn't like it! So I'm all good.

Stress level: High
Pop: 2 cans :c
Biked 1.75 miles

So Tired....

I am so exhausted. I'm still sick, just a sore throat, but it's a sore throat. My ankle is still sore. I have way to much to do and all I want to do is sleep. I barely made it through yesterday. I was on the verge of tears all last night during WOW. I'm pretty much there now too. I just can't beat this thing. :c

I biked today 2.25 miles, cause I got caught up reading :p not a bad thing.

Weighed in today at 306 on the nose. wrong direction. :c but I really haven't done much, and hell, I've been eating more sweets then usual ironically. I can't wait til I feel better, and I'm not so stressed. :c